my sin in blogging

Blogging has been challenging in my short 2 months of experience. Let me explain.

Hypocrisy has intensified as I have aimed to declare my (false) wisdom and (inflated) knowledge. Hiding in my heart is a motivation to blog with the hope that others may view me as a wise, godly woman with much to say at such a young age.

But how shallow I really am, realizing that I have run out of gas only a handful of weeks into this blogging project. I just don't have that much wisdom in my 21 years on this earth, and now I get that.

I just want to come clean about this for my own conscience and for any readers (if there are any) whom may have been led astray by my falsity.

Another motivation for blogging has been to edify myself (and others) throughout the workday. Really, all I have been doing in this arena is regurgitating information found on other beneficial blogs. I have been a fake; I have posted on issues, Scripture verses, books, etc. that have not transformed my life. I have posted just to post, and this pattern has become deafening.

There are other blogs that can meet our needs as younger individuals seeking wisdom and godliness (see my recommended blog list). I will no longer pretend that my blog can meet this need.

In the future, I hope to blog on what is truly impacting my life. Wisdom or folly, it will aim to be authentic and raw, a challenge for me to wage war against the pride that desperately desires the praises of men. Hopefully, others may benefit from my attempt to process what God is doing in my life, my current struggles, and whatever hints of insight I may gain along the way.